Alone

If I could get you out of my mind I could breath

But instead I suffocate at the thought of your name

My body rushes to escape this sense of confinement I feel

Trapped by my own thoughts that hold me prisoner

Is it my sense of self-denial that tells me I don’t deserve you

Or is it your voice that I hear saying “No”.

A man should never love a woman more than he loves her

Or more than she ever could

I regret loving you only because the pain left from that once warm space

Is now empty, dark and cold

If I had it to do all over again, I would

Just to hear you say, “I love you”.

Go now from my mind and leave me to ponder

Wondering if I should ever love or even find another

Put me back where you found me and leave me to be

Alone with my thoughts

Wrestled in time

With nowhere

To go

I am

Alone